So it’s gotten to the point where I hear music. You guys I’m not crazy. I promise. I go about my days as per usual and I’m 100% with it, but at night when I take the time to focus on this… this shit (I know what it is but I also have no fuckin clue whats going on) then I feel/hear it.
Not just like songs repeated that I had been hearing throughout the day from the radio or something. But new, hand written songs fresh, never published songs.
Part of me wants to say I know where they come from and part of me is too big of a scaredy cat to even think of the possibility of what it may, or may not be… but if it’s what I’m thinking, or even hoping, it’s phenomenal.
But all I KNOW is that me as C did not write them. But I do know someone who would and probably did write lyrics along those lines. Someone whom I’m currently not really on speaking terms with. But thinking? Oh we think together ALLLL the time. So much so that I’ve heard his fresh rythmes while laying in bed. Creepy? For sure. But also true.
It’s gone past feeling movement etc. Now, no matter what you tell me, I know I’ve heard beats and lyrics that I had no part in writing and never would. Songs about the apocalypse and rotting flesh etc… definitely not from my side of the thought process lol.
It’s like the more I trust my thoughts as well as convince my thoughts and convince the thoughts in my head to trust me, the stronger of a connection we make. This though also leads to a love hate relationship. It leads to disappointment when the thoughts I trust, don’t end up following through doing what they promise in my thoughts, if that even makes sense.
Either way, I guess my point for this post will be, how would you continue with your thoughts, if others could actually hear them? What if those conversations we had “with ourselves” “in our mind” were actually being had with the thoughts of the individual we were thinking of?
For real? What if? Would you have more kind thoughts 24/7? Would you be a more positive person? Remember we are souls/spirits living in these bodies for now, so what if every thought we have, is actually our souls communicating with each other. Each thought is a comment we will be held accountable for one day. A day that is coming closer and closer.
Just a thought you should consider.
Because I’ll be honest… it’s like I’ve been having out of body experiences. And they are amazing, but for some reason, I can’t stay there. And I would hate the reason to be the fact that collectively our belief is not strong enough in the idea of “heaven” per-say. But I have learned that music is the cornerstone of much of this.
That, and trust that it is even possible
-Foo Fighters/The Sky Is A Neighbourhood-